Tuesday, 14 February 2012

Just another day

For some people, February 14th is a day to celebrate that "special someone" in your life.  You buy them gifts and cards and spend some extra time with them to show just how much you really love and appreciate them.

For others, it is a day to dwell on loneliness.  To do everything within their power to forget that they don't have a "special someone".  A person to buy them gifts and cards and to spend extra time with to know how much they are really loved.

Yesterday I would have put myself in that second category, but today, things have changed.  I no longer feel the need to dwell on not having a guy on my arm to buy me roses and all that other stuff (that quite frankly could be done every other day of the year).  For me, Valentine's day is becoming just another day.  I will get up, go to work, go home, have a killer work out, and go to bed.  It won't be any more or less special, it will just...be.

Leading worship at EFFEKT (the college and carrier group at Dakota Community Church) tonight was tough. I've had a challenging week and that always makes it a little harder to get into leading.  As I was putting together the worship slides, I felt very... at peace.  Even though I had been having an increasingly hard time with the approach of "V Day", ready and typing out the lyrics to some of my favorite worship songs seemed to sooth the aches I didn't know I was feeling. 

I am not on this earth to be some guys trophy, or to spend all my time dating trying to find "the one".  I am on this earth serve my God with my whole heart! I am here to be His... period.  No matter how lonely I feel in a moment of weakness, I am never truly alone.  I don't need to go around trying to find "the one" because He already found me.  I would much rather spend my days singing and worshiping Him.  Thanking Him for all the wonderful things He has done for me and for all the gifts He has given me. 

I just realized something... maybe Valentine's day will be a special day.  Maybe I'll spend a little extra time with my Father up above.  Show Him how much I really love Him and am grateful for Him in my life.  I will read, pray and sing until I can't make a sound anymore. Then I will continue to worship Him in my heart because...

my voice gives out before my heart does

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

Adventure of a Lifetime

It has begun

I am embarking on probably one of the craziest adventures of my short life so far.  I am preparing to go to Worcester, South Africa with Youth With A Mission (YWAM) on a Troubadour Discipleship Training School.  It will be 4 months of growth, challenges, obstacles, miracles, and other gracious wonders of God.

I have 4 friends who either have done different YWAM schools, or a currently doing them.  They have all told me to prepare for God to do amazing things in my life. That He will challenge me and test me. I am more ready than I think even I would like to admit.  The thought of God taking me and molding me into the woman He intended me to be is thrilling. The changes I've seen in those friends that have already come home are all the "warning" I need. I am so blessed to have these friends in my life.  They are a constant encouragement to me and a true blessing in life. 

With all the preparations going on, funding is the one stressing me out the most.  Raising a large amount of $ in 2 months... am I surprised?... No!  However, I have been praying, both alone and with friends, that God will provide the funds.  Today, some of that prayer was answered when my Mom and Step-dad told me they were going to pay for about 80% of my flight to and from South Africa. I was floored, speechless even.  How is it that they can find space in their budget to help me fly halfway round the world? It can only be a God thing.

I feel like I am living in such an amazing time right now. God is clearly leading me somewhere and I can't wait to get there. Through it all I will be singing and praising His name and I know that even when I'm tired and stressed,

My voice gives out before my heart does