Ever Wonder?

Have you ever wondered, at that moment, when a song fits perfectly into your current situation, why the Holy Spirit waited till then to shake you to your core?  Have you ever had a friend placed in your life who is there solely to be God's voice in your life and make you snap out of it?

Tonight, I had an experience where both of these amazing, soul changing, moments took place.

My best friend B has always been up front with me.  Her words bless me every time we are together.  This weekend she has been on me to stop making excuses for everything and lay all my insecurities at God's feet.  I guess I overcompensate for my lack of self confidence by being a little bit snooty, and coming off very conceited and narcissistic (among other things).  And there I go, starting to make excuses again.  Getting out of her car i decided, this is it!  The beginning of the end of my excuses.  I know it won't be easy, and it won't happen overnight but I will do it!  "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"!! (Phil 4:13)

After our talk, I went up to my apartment to take a look at a DTS I'm interested in and to start this blog.  First thing I almost always do when I get home is turn on some music and, every once in a while, a song will come on that fits my mood. This time however, the song was an exact reflection, and confirmation, of everything B had just been telling me! It was the song Beautiful Things, by Gungor.  The crazy thing is, I've been listening to this song, and the whole album in fact, for the last 2 months and it has never hit me the way it did tonight. The lyrics are as follows...

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new
You are making me new

... of course, I started crying immediately ('cause I'm a sap like that).  I felt in my heart that all the changes I need to make are not changes I can make in myself, but changes that I need to let the Holy Spirit take hold of and run with!  As long as its just me trying to make the changes, they will fail at every turn.  However, Christ's death and resurrection has made me new!! My prayer for the next foreseeable future will be that the Holy Spirit will take me, a worthless, broken, sinful person, and mold me into the woman I need to be to further His kingdom here on earth.

My final thought for the evening is Psalms 34:18 and it says, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit."  It is a constant encouragement to me to know that because of my faith, the Lord will be there to carry me through times like these. Be blessed in whatever struggles you are going through right now, and know that God is right behind you, to catch you when you fall.

Amen