I still can't believe this is actually happening. I am going to South Africa!!! It's so surreal. Right now I just feel like I'm taking a short holiday in Minneapolis but deep down I know that in the at 11am tomorrow Dan and Kathy, my pastor and his wife, will be dropping me off at the airport. How did this happen?!? It feels like just yesterday I was telling people I felt God calling me to South Africa! Now I'm only a 23 hour plane ride away :s.
It certainly has been an amazing journey so far. Every step of the way God has been teaching me to trust Him. I didn't know where I was going to get the money for flights, tuition, and supplies, God provided. I didn't know if my Study Visa would be approved or if it would arrive in time, God provided (in a very timely fashion I might add). When I found out that we were going to London, England during the Olympics for outreach I didn't know if I had the extra funds to cover the extra costs, God provided. I have never found myself more in awe of God than I am right now. The fact that He would take someone like me, someone broken, unclean, and wholly unworthy, and send me halfway across the world to mold and shape me for His glory... AMAZING, AWESOME, HUMBLING!!! Trusting in God has gotten me this far and as long as I continue to trust in Him I will be able to do everything else.
I always wondered what people meant when they said they had been "called" somewhere by God. What does that look like? What does God's voice sound like? Are you sure it was God and not the 5 burritos you had for supper? Now I know! This is what it looked like for me. I never heard a voice, didn't receive an email, a tweet, and IM, nothing. I just had this overwhelming knowing in my heart that this was where He needed me to be. So that's where I'm going. As crazy and nonsensical as I sometimes think it is, I'm going!
I think that's all for now. I've typed enough that the music running through my head has gone down to a soft whisper which means I may get some sleep tonight. I will try and post again when I arrive in Amsterdam.
My voice gives out before my heart does!
God Bless everyone